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hai kelausai~! haha so much for updating on a daily basis...things NEVER go as they're planned...that's why i live my life going along with the flow....doing things at the spur of the moment...ohhh like yesterday yesterday when i wenta play pool with imran, hilmy n khabir....that was also because AN ORIGINAL PLAN with someone didnt work out...oh but of course spur of the moment decisions have their cons...haha...don't think imran's mum had a good impression of me =P

so...highlights of my life since the last time i left it..."horror"fest at andrea's wasn't at all horrifying in the least....more a comic relief...haha. i guess tim's idea of horror is a wee bit backdated. i agree how modern horror flicks can be considered cheap and whatever u term them nowadays but for a horrorfest, its the screams that u want. who cares how ridiculous or nonsensical the plot is (well i care abit ah actually, must at least make some sense), as long as it makes u gag, cringe, screw ur eyes shut, watch half the screen, puke, jump out of your chair, scream/shout/screech/bellow/howl,  hug/grip/strangle your friend, then you've achieved a successful horrorFEST. aite, i'll bring the cds the next time yeah haha! but it was a great sleepover with great ppl, hanging out on the roof scaring neighbours at 4 in the morning. yep. horrorfest part 2 will proceed real soon.

oh n i've been henna-ing ard:my mum's hands, my sister's hands and legs. haha hafta say i'm getting the hang of it. i did my mum's in exchange for her helping me dye my hair burgundy. but it was a flop coz  my hair's not burgundy at all haha unless u catch me in the sun n u'll prolly see flecks of purply brown?i dunno. oh so check out my "work of art"...tho i find my sister's smiley-faced heart kinda retarded but she insisted n i'm just there to make her happy hahz

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Watched saw 2 with maya yesterday. woohoo~! rocked my socked toes! we were rushing from magribing at ghufran (we went ahead without the imam coz he was taking his sweet little time hahaha) n century square has this thing abt punctuality so we missed a snippet of the front. wah starting aredi gory!hahaha it really kept us on our toes till the end. really clever script, plot yada3. havent been as satisfied with a movie since i dunno when. tho there were stupidly gory parts as in unnecessary gore like....nemind go watch it for urself hahz.

Just started packing for thailand coz my nenek has been hinting at me to get my butt moving. haiz. i havent got the packing mood yet. did the toiletries n clothes part. the rest can relak one corner for the time being hahz. i wanna shop in thai but dunno if got enough money lah walaoooo~ wish i was a rich ass. who doesn't? those who are already rich. lets eat the rich. k im rambling. ohhhh n i was ultra-pleasantly surprised by the fact that mayapreeyeek r sending me off on monday hahahaha totally didnt expect that. u people "are love"!wahahaha thank thank thanks seriously. planning to sneak into choir concert tmr. haha acting as maya's mic adjuster :p or prop handler or sumthing. hope i succeed.

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yowzah~! man u won their away match against charlton 1-3 woohoo creds to alan smith n nistelrooy. n ronaldinho just keeps on rocking doesnt he...wished he went to man u~

gilmore girls was the highlight of the day. haha having spent most of this week being a naughty girl, i changed over a new leaf (just for today) and spent the day at home. was really tired anw. my legs have been swearing at me! so back to gilmore.haiz poor marty...but i still prefer logan wahaha eh n luke n lorelai how ah? i saw the part where lorelai kinda teared during the performance n luke was looking at her n stuffs but wat happened after dat? wasnt sure i caught it. now for the bad news: the next episode is on 18th dec!!!waddehell. must be this SEA games shit. can it get telecasted on some bloody own channel specially for sports. im sure if they sold all those unnecessarily expensive gadgets like automatic hand-activated paper towel machines dey'll have enough money to sponsor Sportscity n whatnots. n dump all the soccer n tennis there too for the sake of poor unfortunate cableless sports fanatics like me. talking bout soccer, baihaki's on tv!!!jean: "baihaki..! makes spore soccer gd to watch" wahaha

had vj raya outing on friday. i was a starkarat as usual but i didnt miss the first house!haha met the rest dere. highlight of the outing was the incredible food in almost all houses! mee n yummy chicken wings, satay n lontong, lontong goreng, soto ayam, homemade pizza at imran's!!!woo...the pizza sampai ditapao2. i feel so malu!!!was apologising profusely to the mother.faiz nye pasallah. im gonna kill him! photos will be uploaded some other day. malas~

last week of UWC Super 7s tournament yest. mr seet wasnt ard coz he was overseas on some expedition so rebecca managed us. we played better without him ard haha. joy was woman of the match man! first stint at goalkeeping n already saving penalties like a breeze :p woohoo~

after lunch at far east went home. thought of napping but didnt noe what i did at home. after magrib prayers, met fadhil and joined bob shawn n jeremy baybeats at youth park. tot andrea was coming coz bob mentioned "andrea's fren" but jeremy said "do u think andrea will go to such things?" wahaha. during the train ride, remembered fadhil telling me how his ex have been trying to contact him even tho she already has a new bf. den her bf found out n threatened fadhil through *drumrolls* FRIENDSTER. haha the coward sent him a "threatening" warning message thru the bloody website. mite as well send an email!so kental!!!wahaha

the gig wasnt that nicelah. too screamo. jeremy found a soulmate in fadhil. going on abt their fav band, Muse. i swear jeremy developed a crush on him wahaha. then walked ard looking at christmas lights n shawn used his precious bdae cam. he looked like peter parker!

in the train ride home, bob suddenly sat on my lap dat asshole den jeremy sat on top of him! my legs would have crushed if not for bob being so underweight hahaha. it was sucha wacky ride. the convo had too many of the word "penetrating" being used. i wanted to disapparate out of the train for the shame.

at bedok, grabbed some coke n fries from macs b4 walking home. tried a different longer route haha he tried taking sum pics on his cam but blur so used mine. voiddeck background, how pretty :p "whatever didi wants" kept ringing. im sure my grdparents must have noticed the new trend of my not wanting my grdpa to fetch me n suddenly loving the bus :p at least i tried hard not to lie too much lah. even told dem i went home with a fren who lives in 132 k. skip the gender. they always assume anw. yep, gonna miss this when he goes. he keeps saying IF he goes...but i shall prepare to expect the worse. good nite~

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cowabunga~!
just got back from pau's. the hockey gals n some guys visited her at her place in hougang. she was sitting on the chair with her left leg stretched out on another chair, her knee bandaged and looking huger than normal. at least she was smiley n all. what did we get her? PAUS. two yam purple ones haha~ i was sitting on the floor with most of the rest and i got really sleepy that i fell asleep resting my head on jean's lap who was sitting on the chair. haha my head kept drooping n i felt her having to slowly push my head up again and again. coulnt tahan sia. lacked sleep last night.

b4 that we had training n then went for harry potter at cine. it was good lah i guess but i wasnt too enthusiastic abt it after seeing how they totally cut the Quidditch world cup, as in the match. i guess we have to give them lotsa credit for their digital effects n all tho. n the twins were finally funny as compared to previous movies. it was kinda funnier relatively too lah. daniel is hot hehe. love his hair. hated dumbledore. unnecessarily angsty. oh n i was kinda distracted towards the end coz fadhil told me something he had been keeping to himself n came as something really unexpected. hmm.

anw tsd potluck yesterday was cool tho not really that memorable in the sense nothing ultra wacky happened other than eating n camerawhoring etc. teachers talked to us. DSers are clowns. now im wondering whether im wasting my time even planning my DS and preparing for it if thrashing is imminent. was telling bob my idea when we were in the taxi on the way to tamp yest nite. he didnt think it was cheesy. we took a cab coz i was late for emily rose haha.

the movie was at 9.30 and we only got to leave potluck at 9+???shit. bob wanted to go but he was still serving his grounded sentence. so in the end, i watched with fadhil, shawn n his girl friend. quite spooky tho it got abit draggy in the end. kinda boring too. the possessed parts were nice but could have made more impact if there were more?haha i dunno. whoever acted as emily rose deserves an oscar. i felt sad for ER coz she was an unlucky soul to deserve such torture.

i was thirsty n asking shawn whether he had anything to drink. he passed me a can but luckily i noticed "HEINEKEN" printed across it. asshole. then in the middle of the movie, i witnessed something hilarious haha. shawn was wearing his holey pants (hey, "holy" pants!:p) n dere was a huge hole at the knee. i saw him put his hand thru the hole to scratch his leg n i whispered "ohhh thats wat the holes are for..." hahahaha n we were trying to stifle our laughter like mad. otherwise, company was first class *cheh* n i dun mind rehiring the service in future muahaha terbelit2 i talk ah.

by the time it ended it was 11.40+ n i asked whether its possible for me to reach home at 12. he was so confident dat i surely can haha but yea rite. took 18, walked from the bridge there blah3 reached home at 12.30. wowee~ my grdparents werent mad but they were worried coz they tot i went home all by myself at such shady time. if only they knew. i felt safe all the way. wahaha. i remembered planning to myself that next time i'll just say i went home with fadhilah. at least im not lying..."baleq ngan fadhil, ah" get it?haha watever.

met him at bedok just now. he called me when i was in 88 on the way home from pau's. was talking to him bout the news dat he had surprised me with. his leaving singapore on 12th dec to study islamic studies in yaman till 2009?? haiz. wanted to get some stuffs at the singseh but it was closed already. so walked home n talked3 while he helped me carry my irritating hockey stick...he knows omar!haha small world. can yaman cease to exist by tmr? my happiness is ALWAYS shortlived...

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heyho lets goooooooo~
wahahaha chatting to hikam now n he's offering me tajwid lessons wahahaha. my co-student will be rozaini and co-teacher, khai pakimam. bahahaha

anw, training ended badly yesterday. we were playing a game. was retrieving a stray ball when pauline cried out and collapsed. i might have made it sound abit too melodramatic but it was really scary. she was on the ground crying and whining. i didnt see what happened but apparently she slipped and she said she saw her bone pop out from under her knee b4 she fell. the fact that she was crying like mad n didnt let anyone touch her showed how bad it was. i'd never tot i'd see pauline in sucha situation. i was really shocked and scared for her i just sat down n watched her, biting my nails. everyone dropped everything they did n crowded ard. oh n even the soccer boys came over coz i guess pauline's cry was pretty audible. oh yea, saiful, if you're reading this, help us thank the soccer team for their help. they were in their right minds at the time n got us some ice real quick. the rest of us were just rooted and numb and helpless. the ambulance came soon n blah3 u get the pic. but the main thing is we learned that she didnt dislocate anything thank god n it was just her muscles getting screwed up or sumthing like dat. shes gotta go ard on crutches but at least she got discharged frm the hospital. we're cursed. we're getting injured one by one. i had my share when sum tp gal bashed me up on my cheek leaving me scarred. jean twisted her ankle. joyce fractured her elbow. huey huey has her fingers bandaged coz of fracture. aneesah has eyeshadow on one eye. xinyi scraped her elbow and knee. the rest...beware....hahz...nah i really hope it ends here... can't afford any more injuries...pls.

had 5km run yest. pulled my hamstring again during the sprint down the bridge. spent sum pts of training icing my thigh. i hate this. at this rate it will never fully recover.

potluck at mr.lofthouses (im not going to call him lofty until he makes it official wahahaha) later. planning to brg kebabs n roti john n i gotta start cooking soon but i havent even showered yet wahahaha. i just hope i dun embarass myself with my cooking. but they were delicious during the fasting season so i dunno yea. hope it will remain delicious :p.

i wanna watch emily roseeee. excellent reviews everywhere! n i didnt noe bob is scared of horror flicks wahaha "it fucks with my mind" haha but i might just make him go and watch it. hope more peeps wanna go after loftys? ooops! after mr lofthouse's! yup yup. i think im picking bob up from bedok mrt. maya too probably. anyone else wants a ride??

anw, i was just thinking to myself how sometimes u can get uncontrollably mushy with someone u kinda fancy? like sometimes we might see n read mushy stuffs that others say to each other n we go ewwwww. but when we are on the receiving end of the mushiness, don't we kinda feel good abt it? haha like it might seem yucks to others looking in but between the two of u, its just natural?haha maybe i shouldnt "eww" other peeps too much.....its different when its happening to u.....haha crapping. aite out!

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heyho da dally yo~ had grp yesterday. went audrey's for a movie marathon. the theme was psychothrillers and we watched Identity and Mindhunters. absolute must watch. it kept us guessing till the end!identity's ending was totally unexpected and quite complicated to understand but still a very cool show. thats what we want for our piece. something that keeps the audience guessing till the end. for now some random words to sum up our vision. oops nah. lets just keep u guessing. wahaha~

met fadhil yesterday. yep spur of the moment decision. what else? was returning books with darrel at mp lib and he asked whether wanna go play pool. suggested parkway but with the condition of his leg, bedok would be easier for him so yea. thats what we did, pool. haha scared it would be abit awkward so i asked ali n aziedah along. onli ali came but he was late so in the end it was just the two of us playing at princess. never went there b4 but it was cool coz it was fairly empty. haha and it wasnt awkward at all surprisingly coz it was really easy to get along with him. felt like i knew him longer than less than 2 days. he was pretty rusty coz he hasnt played since last yr but not bad lah. tried to learn the chip but he made it look so much easier than done. "scoop it?" waddehell haha the only times i could chip was when it was uncalled for and when i didnt mean to. then ali the pro came along and we pretty much relaxed one corner while he played solo hahaha. stopped at 9+ coz i promised my granny i'll be home then. ajaked me go get something hot to drink or something but too bad it was 9. they walked me home and fadhil elaborated on his accident. damn scary. im thinking twice abt getting a bike license. haiz. i've always wanted one tho. those childhood times i rode around with my uncle when he had his pretty blue and white Suzuki. haiz.

training later at 4. followed by grp dinner at raffles city. wonder if i'll get there in time. aite toodles~

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yowzah. cool. 2nd consecutive day of blogging. not bad. i mite just get back into it. hahaha. i sound like a fugging kuno don't i? but i really damn long never update in lj dat i dun remember the technicalities that goes ard here. even something simple like lj cut?! talk abt short term memory. this is embarassing.

anw...im kinda starting to feel the slow stealthy creeping in of stress+guilt+anxiety everytime i think abt my DS(dramatic sequence). this reminds me of the day me n maya (k maybe just me but she was in on the whole thing with me so i bet she felt as adrenalined as i did) got really lucky. i really wanna kiss kar mun coz it was her msg telling bout the free tarian+silat performance going on at nat. lib dat led me to the perfect starting pt of me n my DS. i've been carrying ard this idea since i dunno when, doing a movement based piece incorporating tarian n silat, along the lines of tun fatimah. and walah! a perfect example smacked me right in the face! and the luck!!!it was amazing!!

k backtrack abit. the performance was at 4.30. had the feeling it was the short half an hr kinda exhibition coz it was those function room kinds. then me n maya were late coz i was caught up with my grp meeting. arrived there nearing 5 n it was already ending. but we were still allowed in and they were letting some of the audience join them in their moves. we sat down with the rest of the audience only to be dragged up by the tarianers to join them!wahahaha (oh and the gal who dragged me was marina "yusoff" *izit yusoff?*) and it was only me n maya "performing" with the rest of the pros. not to mention we fit in perfectly coz we were in our blacks n their costumes were black too. wah my first stint at silat!!!wahahaha

thats not the end of our/my luck. it ended soon after that and i was asking whether they had future performances since i missed most of it. blah3 it got into me explaining abt DS and a levels and tsd.and marina explained how the tarian is based on TUN FATIMAH!!! coincidence???watthefug.it doesnt end there!their instructor/choreographer makcik som or sumthing took pity on me and said that they'll give me another performance. right there and then. just me n maya in the room as audience. waddehell. felt like some bloody VIPs. oh my god and they had the perfect song abt tun fatimah. shit ass. me n maya were gawking like no one's business. i bet our faces were like those SCREAM momok masks, u noe, with the fixed circle mouths.wahahaha~

it was perfect coz it was how i envisioned my piece, tarian moving into silat. again, watthefug. wahaha. then after the performance talk3. they told me abt sri warisan n i mite just drop there soon. how maya?go with me?haha. oh n my dearest fren has a silat fren who mite just be my lifesaver!haiZ but i dunno when i'll start the ball rolling.oh n guess wat. ali pandai2 gave my email to some guy namer fadhil who turned out to be namirah's brother. haha really nice and funny guy.

and.

he noes silat.
he stays so fugging near.
he said he doesnt mind helping me.

oh...and he's hot....dot dot dot.

but waddehell was i thinking??i only just got to noe him and i was already blabbering tsd jargon into his face. hahaha. i dunno ah... nothings been set coz im pretty much still a stranger haha. talk abt spur of the moment.

oh n more photos galore. yest. went to kak rin's and cik edah made delicious homemade chikong! n u noe how i eat very little of the "sampah". wow the best ever chikong specially tailored for me: the tea with lotsa lotsa mate kucing!heaven. and made some bucks selling 3 pairs of earrings to kak rin. wahaha. aite. grp meeting later on. movie marathoning at audrey's. till next time.

 

 

hmm pics from farhanah's cam's not too good.ahahz. aite. out.

ooo an sms from him. who's the sweet one now...?:p

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yowzah! i've came to resurrect my dead journal. such an irony to its namesake.hmm this might only last a day b4 it dies again but waddehell. if im not lazy, it'll continue breathing.

so yesterday was a really unexpectedly fun day! haha who would think i'll be going out with the primary sch kids after 5 yrs of no contact with one another. had hockey at UWC in the morn so rushed home to bathe n change. the peepz were meeting at 12 so i thot i'd meet them at someone's house. called them n they were at 404, leaving soon so they decided to come my house. khairiani, atikah, daing farhanah, aziedah, imran, ali, shahrul, khabir, hilmy, khairul. my nenek said the guys were loyar buroks but ironically she layaned them more then she layaned the gals wahaha. khabir is tall!not taller than me but wow. drastic change since the last time i saw him bahahaha. n more sociable now too. guess his new found height gave him confidence. aziedah!my long lost best friend. since kindergarten sia. ali whom i didnt recognize at first coz wasnt close to him last time. turned out to be one of the more friendlier guys out of the bunch. tho hard to judge coz they were all relatively friendly actually.

khairiani left us at salmiah's place to go meet her bf. then atikah left at farhanah's place to join her np mates at cikgu zain's house. it was weird coz after she left, everyone somehow got rowdier and the guys n gals got along so much better than it how it was earlier during the day. or maybe it was just the fab spaghetti at farhanah's place that was the much needed energy to recharge ourselves. we got there at 5+ and i havent eaten since morning when i left for hockey haha. we were all itching to leave radiah's place when farhanah told us abt the food at her house. we were all bloody hungry that when we were going down the stairs to radiah's place, we almost took up some lady's offer to masok and makan coz her house was having some open house n there was lotsa food sampai takder space that they had to place mejas outside.*excuse my rojak language, oh having spent the day with a buncha mlys (wic is rare since i went into vj) i blabbered the most mly in a day ever this yr* we hadta drag khairul from entering the house.

it became a rule to take a formal pic followed by a candid one for every camera. i swear my face had never experienced such manic-expressions that much in a day. we were total camerawhores that we sempat berposing kat roadside pat geylang. roti kirai at hilmy's was great only to be nearly puked out by the video in khairul's hp showing this girl eating shit out from someone's butt. like eww. den farhanah decided to test our puking abilities even more when she showed her video of some woman digging her eyes out with a fork. but it was kinda fake lah but still sick in the stomach.

excuse my long post coz ive not blogged in eons and am much a descriptive person so i apologise. but since u are still reading, i guess u don't mind my longwindedness haha. the busride to shahrul's was so long n draggy i got headached. the guys were all lepaking n took the opp to get some shuteye. was abt to fall asleep myself when a pair of converse caught my eyes. sat up, saw a cap worn backwards with lotsa badges pinned on it. EUREKA! i shouted "BOB!" across the bus (i was sitting at the back n bob was near the stairs so i must have been quite audible tsk3 talk abt doing things without thinking, the guys all woke up haha). bob came over to the back. haha the dude had church. he so looked like he was from church :p chatted to him abt sentosa n stuffs. funny. said hi to his frenly dad. den he got off n back to migraine busride. shahrul was so slenger dat when we asked whether we were reaching he said he didnt noe. haha wanted to bash him up. remembered the times we caught him pressing his two index fingers against his temple whenever he got stressed muahahaha.

oh after his place, we crazy ppl were deciding whether to go watch emily rose or play pool. it was already 10+ n in our state, sitting down would just make us sleep while the movie plays on. so we chose the latter n made a fashion statement entering the pavillion *watever its called* in raya gear. haha the colourfullest table by far. farhanah had to go home so it was just me n aziedah n the guys. tag teamed with shahrul n then ali. haha wasnt a bad day compared to sharul's muahaha. haha not trying to perasan but got to show abit of gurl power n earned some respect. the guys were nice lah. were helping aziedah to let her hand get along with the cue stick. imran was a pro. wah..using his cue stick to work out the angles. bet he plays yahoo pool everyday hahaha. aziedah had to leave so we left as a grp and took 69 home. ali let me listen to "minah tudong" by ahli fiqir. haha quite amusing and i guess its fairly true. but i still dun like how ppl act as if those who wear tudongs are very different to those who dont. after all, we are all muslims. so who r u non-tudong wearers to comment on ppl who wear tudongs. i wrote a post abt this issue once so i wont lengthen this ultra lengthy entry even more haha. got home at midnight.it was a fantastic day n we're hoping to go out again some other day so we'll c. now for a visual intake of the day.....

the lousy pics are from my phone. oh n being a kuno, i dunno how to use lj cut. no time to meddle ard. going out to my father's side later. finally. haha n today's my mummy's bdae! almost forgot, can u imagine?tsk3. aite goodbye!

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How to make a longlivemylife

Ingredients: 3 parts jealousy 3 parts silliness 5 parts energy

Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little fitness if desired!

longlivemylife's LJ stalker is mylyfe!

mylyfe is stalking you because they think you are rich and they want your blingbling. They are also stalking you in real life. Look out!

k juz bullshit dat entry k...
maybe im overreacting.

now...instead of her feeling guilty, im feeling guilty...
i dunno if dis is sum reverse psychology or sumthing bt i regret my outburst...
now it'll be hard to mend things between us...

but den again...if u tink ive made a mistake n dat im overreacting, y dun u clarify things wif me...face to face...i hate these sms tyrade(?).
if im wrong den y didnt u tell me i was wrong wen i accused u thru dat hint...
y must u wait till u left, den u sms me saying that i shud mind my own business ladida...
it doesnt solve things...

now us being our hot headed selves will probli not haf any form of communication till the next century...

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i shudnt haf typed all that shit in the previous entry...
coz watever problem im facing is juz shameful shit...
if ur sharp u wud haf figured it out...
if im discreet enuff u guys shud be lost...
i-dun-fucking-understand-watever-ur-saying-didi lost...
its juz dat part of me juz wanna be heard...

but if u guys ask me watevers da problem...
im afraid i cant fully explain coz i just cant...

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i'd gif my all...to haf...
juz one more nite wif u...
i'd risk my life...to feel...
ur body next to mine...
coz i can't go on...
living in this memory of our song...
i...gif my all...for ur love...tonite...

anoi: i dunno y but i dun really like to touch small chinese kids
me: oh but big ones u like to touch ah

hmm...much confusion going on abt whether to pon sch tmr...ahahz...i dun mind...but den again...ms lui's coming back n we're way behind in maths...so i guez i'll c how many ppl pakat to pon...hunn's saying she's not sure n she'll tell me tmr morn...i pon-ed yest...not sure if my mum looks forward to writing another phoney letter...

niwae...hunn n anoi left ard an hr++ ago. accompanied hunn get sum medicine from bedok polyclinic coz i've been convincing her that her throat'll get better onli w a dose of antibiotics. in d end, she wasnt prescribed any but the same medi she has at home :p

den we went to eat at bedok hawker centre, nice budget mee soto from inspirasi stall. but hunn was being cerewet n felt like eating bubor. den i was toking to anoi while we queued in the tak-sah-kalau-tak-panjang queue for mee soto n i mentioned bubor at mukmin n anoi started reminiscing abt the nice kacang pool dere. so we burned the queue n ended up eating at mukmin.

den since we were in extreme close proximity to my house, we decided to "study" dere. anoi n hunn got into lilah's good books surprisingly well. haha...we spent most of the time watching music video clips n jackass/ johnny knoxville farting in yoga class. danced ard "practice clubbing". anoi realli gets wacky wen she's at my house.

LATOYA RULES.... n shud haf the title american idol wrapped ard her lil finger if not for american idiots

we got inspired abt wat we're gona wear for prom after watching one of britney's performance.she was wearing this suit. slightly bell-bottomed trousers w matching coat-y top. kinda tightish. complete with a hat and kool sneakerish shoes. sumthing different. like n ultra glamourous charlie chaplin. ahahz...ultra glamourous. we tot of adding the wrist gloves as well.

I THINK FANTASIA'S GONNA WIN.

oh yea...hunn's hp drowned becoz anoi was being a klutz :p...
amazingly i saved it....
coz i didnt give up...

"Sum ppl ah...haf magic hands ah..."
Wart can i say...

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There's always something
in the way
There's always something
getting through
but it's not me
it's You, it's You

sometimes ignorance
rings true
but hope is not in
what i know
it's not in me..me
it's in You, it's in You

it's all i know
it's all i know
it's all i know

i find peace when
i'm confused
i find hope when
i'm let down
not in me ... me
in You
it's in you

i hope to lose myself
for good
i hope to find it in the end
not in me ... me
in You
in You
in You

it's all i know
it's all i know
it's all i know

in You
in You
its in You
its in You

there's always something in the way
there's always something getting through
but it's not me
it's You
it's You
it's You ....

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those who were concerned wud haf noticed i wasnt really my normal self today...

I wake up in so much spit and sweat, it is not normal...What is normal?
haiz...getting irritated that suddenli almost everyone noes this song...

niwae those who were concerned enuff wud noe why i wasnt really my normal self...
n there was onli one...

it may be nuthing to u but it was something to me...it hurt me...
i tot i'd let it go...forget it...i had the feeling it wudnt happen anyway...
but wen i came to sch today...i realized i was still hurt...i was hurt that u seemed to think it was nothing...that it had nothing to do with you....

in the state i am in nowadays, u gave me hope...but u took it away almost immediately...

maybe ur totali clueless abt it...n i shud haf been frank or sumthing...coz i hate keeping shit n i noe how it suckz...but i guess it was a matter of pride...i guess i was hoping that u realized it actually n u'll acknowledge it...but u didnt...

i feel guilty coz there u were trying to find out wat was wrong n i shrugged it off saying im ok while in my head i was screaming words that i never wanna use on u...hypocricy at its best...for that im sorri...

dat wasnt d end of it...ros passed me a letter from nana...with a lil belated prez..
(dangly earrings wic i dunno wen i'll ever wear but they looked nice wen i shioked sendiri in front of the mirror just now)
sumhow i wasnt surprised...like i expected it one day...coz although i realize uve been distant, i knew u wudnt let it go too far...
my eyes just watered while ms hamidah rambled on abt the UN...

the drama stil continues...found a depressed hunn in the toilet. to think i was the one trying to hold my tears baq. den it was just me n her. let her kool off at the 4e4 hangout den we wenta get ice cream. exchanged our misery. she was the onli one concerned enuff. it was sumthing like last friday. haha to think mr ang passed us n noticed how deep we were in our conversation. yea it was nice to let it all go. to noe ur not the onli one hu noes abt ur problems.to noe finalli sumone else noes n cares n empathizes. i was chuckling to myself reading hunn's blog n how she always tot i came from a "perfect" family. i proved u wrong huh?

niwae we went out of sch n i saw nana w her np frens at the busstop. she saw me n we just exchanged knowing glances. i walked to her n wen i reached her i just cudnt take it animore. the whole day's worth of tears just rushed down like i just pulled out sumthing that has been blocking it. rite in the middle of the sea of green. we were hugging n she told me to stop crying while she got teary-eyed herself.the more she told me the more tears cascaded.*jiwang siket* but yea i cudnt help it.it was just so emotional. ive missed her a whole lot this yr. told her i'll reply her letter soon. watever that makes u happy nana...dun force urself to be w us if ur not comfortable but also dun avoid us completely ok. im not too comfortable too most of the time n i noe wart u mean. hunn was marvelling at the fact that the two of us uncryable gundus had a lot of water to give out today.

i went home soon after dat, playing switchfoot's YOU on n on n on thruout my journey home. it suits my mood...like the weather this morning. cold but calm. dere was an accident at the katong mall junction. lorry n car crash.looked like it just happened at that moment coz there were only 2 policemen there n i swear i tot i saw motionless bodies in the car, driver seat n co-pilot seat. if my eyes werent playing trix on me, the co-pilot had his head on the driver's lap. noone was in the lorry. i realized how short life can be. no matter how it suckz,i dunwan mine to end in the state i am rite now. lost n lonely. i wan it to end w me feeling satisfied with all that i haf n being fully equipped for wart comes next...

to my frens out dere, i miss u all n i'll continue praying for us to be reunited one day....

*this is to make up for all these days ive been anti-lj...

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Friends we've been for so long
Now true colors are showing
Makes me wanna cry oh yes it does
Cuz I had to say goodbye

By now I should know
That in time things would change
So it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad

How can I adjust
To the way that things are going
It's killing me slowly
Oh I just want it to be how it used to be

Cuz I wish that I could stay
But in time things must change
So it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad

You cannot hide the way you feel inside I realize
Your actions speak much louder than words
So tell me why oh

By now I should know that
That in time things would change
So it shouldn't be it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad

By now I should know
That in time things must change
So it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad

By now by now I should know
That in time things must grow
And I had to leave you behind
So why do I feel so sad
If it couldn't be that bad
Tell me why

By now I should know
That in time things would change
So it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad


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Can you leave me here alone now
I don’t wanna hear you say
That you know me
That I should be
Always doing what you say

Cuz I’m trying to get you today
And there’s one thing I know

I don’t wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don’t wanna figure this out
I don’t wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don’t wanna talk this one out
I won’t let you bring me down
Cuz I know
I don’t wanna think about you

Don’t wanna think about you

When I wake up here tomorrow
Things will never be the same
Cuz I won’t wait
Cuz you won’t change
And you’ll always be this way

Now I’m gonna get you today
And there’s one thing I know

I don’t wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don’t wanna figure this out
I don’t wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don’t wanna talk this one out
This time I won’t let you bring me down
Won’t let you shut me out
This time I know
I don’t wanna think about you

Runaway, runaway
I’m running as fast as I can

Runaway, runaway
I’ll never come back again

Runaway, runaway

Don’t wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don’t wanna figure this out
Don’t wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don’t wanna talk this one out

I don’t wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don’t wanna figure this out
(Figure this out)
I don’t wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don’t wanna talk this one out
This time I won’t let you bring me down
(Bring me down)
Won’t let you shut me out
(Shut me out)
This time I know
I don’t wanna think about you

Runaway, runaway
Don’t wanna think about you (3x)

Runaway, runaway

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all these while....
i never had a true friend....

friday.....
i was wondering if i'd hear from anyone...
i didnt wanna call up anibodi....
wanna c if im actualli remembered by anyone...
nope...noone does...
dey haf their other frens, other ppl who they can do stuffs with...
hu cares wart didi's doing...

sumhow, everyone's gone...
prap...i never noe wart she's doing nowadays...
k after sch its always tuition i hear...
other days i dun hear frm her...no msgs nathing...its rare to get a msg ajak kluar or watever frens do nowadays....
i guess she's always wif esther...
nana...i dunno warts going on in her life anymore...rareli hear from her...sch oso never c her ard...spends recess in np room...
fiz....np room too...otherwise..okok...
kecik....sumone i usualli go home with nowadays...she meant it wen she sed she's willing to teach me wen i was on the verge of dropping chem...other den dat...its just going home n stuffs...nak kluar pon susah siket...
shy...i dunno...sumtimes shes there wen i need her...sumtimes shes not...sumtimes i feel i can rely on her...sumtimes i dun...sumtimes i feel that she's one of my close frens...sumtimes i dun....
deej...i loved her...now shes always with the others...i duno wart she does now...i dunno her circle of frens...she makes new frens... gets new bfs...i never noe...unless i go lj...
jabad's just gone...she's always with weishan now...doesnt tell me stuffs anymore...
dun go out animore...i dunno anything animore...

maybe im being ignorant....maybe im being ignored....

its ok...im not asking for sympathy... im just observing n analysing stuffs....


.'. i haf nobodi.....

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You'll never change what's been and gone
Cuz all of the stars
Have faded away,
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them some day,
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

mary-kate n ashley olsen on tv. show reminds me of sum 41's :in too deep: mtv. oh yea, n my fanatic-ness of the twins during my primary sch times; 2 of a Kind :B
*it was a sin to miss it*

just watched the whole of the we will rock u pepsi ad. walau, the ad on tv, tak faham waddehell was going on. pink goes screaming "we will rock u", enrique rockets away (hot after unmole-ation) n da warrior princesses got the pepsi. n the real ad is supposed to show how the tune came abt, n the whole gladiator-arena.n each of them singing (britney's sexy, beyonce hot n pink's rockgirl serak vocals). n enrique n the lion. yep yep.

sports day. hunn n yiqun rawked the 4 by 4 race. *salute* hot hot day. yadayadayada. gurlies singgahed my house. nana n kecik sempat mandi. chill2 n met the rest pat tamp. fish n co. show me the money. grabbed a few items off ili n neem's platter n went off to find cheaper (loads cheaper) food wic satisfies one's stomach as much as fish n co. does. destination:PRIME foodcourt. talked abt life n future. fish n co.-ers rejoined. 60 fahking ketol??!! wat was dat i keep on hearing nowadays? "makkaugilerkillerwhale".
n ili just hates money doesnt she. likes to get rid of a whole lot of it in one day. dah fish n co., blanja sumer pancake (?)...n popcorn. okok im not complaining. org bagi, hentam jer~

den dengdengdeng! THE EYE 2:pregnant women should not watch. it was ok. unlike most ghost stories, it has a closure. understandable summore. i tot the ghosts were not so scary looking. but our fellow comrades were screaming ard. ahahz the guys in front quite irritated "eh no need to shout lah" oh but the children dropping from the sky n splattering (literally) on the road was mean. yeow...cudnt watch...imagine...errgh..the rolling eyeball..urgh...the blood from the head n evriwhere...ooze here ooze there...
"why is my head in pain?"
it wasn't bad.its the sound effects that get to you.
oh n i kept on thinking...singapore's trying to get our women to reproduce more at the moment...n dey're showing such movies? hmmm...

haiz eng ca tmr...no need to stardi rite? i mean how do u stardi for it? n i tink dere'll b chem revision w kecik. den my bro wans to blanja me scoobi doo (blated bdae gift), den dere's the temasek afterworld. i dunno hu going n hu to go with if i go. mcm taknak disappoint (?) zai bt waddehell. den my dad wans to chop tempat kat 218 for the arse-man u FA cup clash at 7 tmr. dead beat if i achieve everything. k, sleepi, tata~

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i wanna be happi tmr...
pls let me feel sum happiness...
pure happiness...
dat'll be the greatest b'dae gift...

i haf a feeling that in the rush, i'll be skipping madrasah again tmr...ahahz.
hmm we'll see....

havent gotten naqiah's bdae prez...
sch's in 2 days?
nice.........................

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